Working myself up

It is hot here. I cannot focus and work. My wife has forbidden the air conditioner, that anyway, was too weak for this historical canicula.

Why force myself to work? I am not starving and my daughters refuse  money. The only REAL reason to submit myself to discipline is that I had promised to deliver for tomorrow morning and I am ashamed of my recurring fake promises and saying sorry.

In fact, I have this ugly policy of deceiving my friends and clients and promise impossible deadlines exactly for that reason, to create a sense of crisis and force myself to work.

The system is not working as it used to.  I dont know what to do. How to manage myself. How to motivate my old bones. 

Sprite Zero

Yesterday at 10PM the street temperature in Kever Benjamin City: 41 C. Summer. The girls walk in short dresses made from "estampado" - Casual Printed Short Summer Dress, made of the cheapest textiles printed with vivid floral colors as was the fashion in Buenos Aires in the sixties - and they are showing their white, unblemished, long legs up to the underwear and above. I am a very old man and they are driving me crazy. I drink a 1.5 liter cold Sprite Zero and feel I need to have sex, like at fifteen. This water contains citric acid and no caffeine but must have a secret aphrodisiac ingredient. I work on Zadoc's house project, the submittal was approved but in fact, he intends to build three separate apartments, so he needs a second unsigned drawing for the contractor. Some money came in and sleep better.

This State of Israel is changing its official forms. No more "Name of the Mother" nor "Name of the Father". Now it is "First Parent" and "Second Parent". This is an extremely nationalistic race-aware country while at the same time, extremely egalitarian, liberal and homosexual-friendly. Hungary would like to be like us, Mussolini's Italy may have been somewhat like us. Mussolini was socialist and liberal, never hurt the Jews.

Poland refuses to restitute Jewish property

There is a bitter dispute about the restitution of formerly Jewish property in Poland. The Polish, as one man, are against giving back a zloty to the legal inheritors of Poland's 3 million strong Jewish community before WWII. While most of the Jews, like the Poles, were penniless and starving, much of the urban property and factories were owned by Jews.

The argument is that the Polish people was itself a victim of the Nazis, so the Jews should go and demand Hitler. While it is true that for the Nazis, the Poles were second class subhumans (the first class being the Jews) and they pitilessly decimated them, the Poles themselves were no friends of the local Jews. Let us not make moral judgments of peoples condemned to death and being exterminated as were the Poles and Ukrainians too. The expropriation of the Jews and their expulsion is a recurring theme in European history: France 1200, England 1300, Spain 1495, etc.

An interesting question is if the five years Nazi rule did reduce the average IQ of the Poles and Ukrainians. The SS Aktion groups had orders to kill all the Jews and all the local intelligentsia such as Communist commissars, priests, teachers, and potential leaders. The Soviets followed by killing the Polish officer class. Poles and Jews lost about the same absolute numbers. How many IQ points the Poles lost as a result of this selective extermination? Considering the difficulties faced by Poland and Ukraine to reach their pre-WWII economic and intellectual output, as compared with similar like  Hungary, Czechoslovakia, Eastern Germany, that did not suffer the same policy, it makes sense to suspect that they lost some of their mojo. It does not make me happy, I feel their pain, their loss is a loss for all humanity. 

The Zen of Permitting

I accepted a permitting job of a Mikweh in Tel Aviv. Mikweh is a ritual bath. Females have to immerse themselves in holy mikweh water after menstruation and then are pure to serve their husbands. It was explained to me that the client was the son of the head of the religious council and the submittal is just a formality and will be approved with no observations. I asked for a low fee.

After submitting my plan and protocol, I was obliged to come to a meeting with the bureaucrat in charge of approving the permit. When I saw her, I recognized her immediately, she was Ronit, the green-eyed smiling monster that tortured me ten years ago with a similar job and I wrote a protest letter to her bosses. I realized immediately that she will never approve my permit. In the meeting, she described patiently (two hours) all the details she wants in the document to be submitted, I submissively wrote down her list of impossible desires.

I was so depressed that for a week I could not touch the project. My mind wandered around it, trying to find my balance and the feel of the problem. Like sumo wrestlers performing preparatory exercises waiting for the zen moment to arrive, my mind made rounds and rounds around the problem while never touching the file. When the zen moment comes, the two naked giants face each other and attack, and the actual contest is over in less than a minute. This morning I felt focused and strong enough to open the feared Mikwe file.

In ten minutes I knew what to do.  

They will never get us

I am reading about the Israeli demographic miracle:   “The more they afflicted them, the more they multiplied.” (Exodus 1:12)  It is a true miracle, a miracle of the human will. Yet no one seems to write about the Israeli economic miracle, which is no less miraculous. When I made aliyah to Israel, Israel had the image of a beggar and it was because it relied on annual assistance from the United States, reparation payments from Germany, and generous donations and remittances from American Jewry. Foreign exchange balance of Israel was permanently in deficit and respected experts advised us to pack and leave because the country was unsustainable. 

I had no interest in the macroeconomy and could not care less, but working closely with Benno Gitter, a very rich banker and President of Tel Aviv University, I realized he seriously worried about the unfeasibility of Israel's economy. This talented and good man sincerely dedicated his life to the economy of Israel. And he was not an optimist. Yet, miracles do happen in Israel, and now our GNP is at Europe's level or higher and the Bank of Israel is hoarding 100 billion dollar reserves. The country is growing at 5% per year, which ranks higher than all European countries and near the explosive Chinese phenomenon. 

The reason for the Israeli miracle, I think, is that each Israeli realizes that we have REAL enemies that are dreaming of cutting our necks, each one of us. This fact has a most sobering, disciplining effect on each Israeli and on the people as a collective. We do not have the luxury to build ideal net-zero water buildings, nor participate in self-harming suicidal protests like the yellow vests in Paris, or the MeToo in New York. We have experienced defeat and disaster, and we know that life is serious and the killer is really waiting for us around the corner.  

America under the influence of the Szar Evő conspiracy

Thinking on the net zero water house idea, I suddenly realized that the American Government has fallen under the influence of the occult followers of the cryptic conspiratorial "szarevo" philosophy.

The remote origin of the szarevo school is unknown  (although it was already known in the Antiquity as skatophagos), but in my times in Hungary it was widespread among Jewish and Calvinist upper-middle-class people with comfortable living standards, who did not publicly declare their doctrine but anyway, they were easily identified by their bizarre behavior,  The szarevo secret philosophy maintains that to waste is a mortal sin, and although they are wealthy they live like beggars and force extreme austerity on their families, servants, friends. In fact, the etymology of szar-evo is shit-eaters. I do not know if they drink their urine and eat (mixed with the cheapest rotten bread crumbs) their own excrements. If they do not do so, they act suspiciously like that. In school, I had a colleague called Fermin, who masturbated daily (as we all used to do) and collected the sperm in a bottle, which he kept in the kitchen refrigerator. He had not worked yet out what he would do with the increasing amount of sperm, but he strongly felt that it should not be wasted and flushed down the toilet.

Are the szarevo an organized sect secretly imposing their esoteric doctrine on the Government and the American people? Considering the bizarre and extreme recycling scheme of the net zero water house idea, they must certainly be very influential. They have convinced Americans that waste is a sin against the Planet, and having the world's most efficient water infrastructure and illimited freshwater resources in the Great Lakes and their majestic rivers, they should go thirsty and/or drink their own piss. We need a non-antisemite twin of Prof. Kevin MacDonald to write a book about how a handful of Hungarian szarevo refugees infiltrated American Government and is forcing the whole county to follow their bizarre eating habits. They are dictating to build stinking expensive homes and to live in them, and unnecessarily recycle all at a large cost.

Net Zero Water Building

The American Government has developed the idea of net zero building  (see scheme below) and now that I see it in its official configuration, I say it is unsustainable, it is fantastic money burning machine, pure unadulterated, preservers-free nonsense. It requires about ten times the length of piping of a conventional house, many pumps, and control systems, it requires space to connect all these pipes (and space within the building is very scarce), it requires a spacious underground basements (with lighting and air conditioning), it requires two underground water tanks (and a large one for fire fighting, did they forget?) and two water and sewage purification facilities (consuming lots of energy and chemicals) and so. The maintenance of two WWTPs is a headache, just think of the amount of plumbing work required to maintain a simple conventional building. What if the electricity supply is unreliable? The sewage will rot and contaminate the building? The health risks of a conventional building are serious, imagine how dangerous will be here, having abandoned the proven, centuries-old concept of disposing of the sewage immediately and as far as possible from the building, here it is storing and manipulating it. The chemical disinfectants like chlorine and additives like flocculants required are, in themselves, a pollution source. It is a nightmare, I would not live in such a bad-smelling, dirty, polluted, unhealthy house.

On the other hand, the water and sewage supplied by the municipalities are perfectly good and very inexpensive. Why should we want to disconnect from public services? The concept is sick and crazy.